I love the fall weather. It is one of my favorite times in the year. I love the colors of the changing leaves. I love the cool, crisp weather. My favorite genre of movies are on for a whole month. I can finally have hot chocolate whenever I want. It sounds like a perfect time, but this year it is a time of constant headaches and pain.
Every morning I wake up with a headache that continues to linger through out the day. I am having a hard time with pain in my legs. My right side is always on fire. I cannot seem to get comfortable. When I sit it hurts in my hip. When I lay down my knee and calves ache. When I am standing my back is throbbing. I am constantly having the chills. At night when it gets cooler, I am burning up. I cannot find a happy medium.
I want to be able to enjoy this time of the year. The holidays are quickly approaching and I am afraid that I will be hurting too much to enjoy them. I love to cook and bake. I absolutely love decorating for the holidays. I just have to find a way to deal with this pain. January can't come quick enough. I will finally be able to go to the doctor and get some help. Not having health insurance puts a damper on getting proper treatment. I know that many are against the Affordable Care Act or "Obamacare" as many like to refer, but I am so thankful. I can get insurance that I can afford. I won't be turned down for preexisting conditions.
I am hoping the weather cooperates and we can get out and enjoy the colors this upcoming weekend. Before long the leaves will be gone and snow will take their place. I am just thankful I am able to witness another cycle of seasons come to an end.
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- Heather
- I have spent most of my adult life( and now that I think about it) my entire life dealing with anxiety. Anxiety controls my entire life. I am never sure from one day to the next if I will be able to leave the house or answer the phone. Now add in Fibromyalgia and I spend most days in constant pain. Sleep is something that I always crave but never am satisfied. I toss and turn all night trying to get comfortable. Restless Leg Syndrome adds to the joy of trying to get a good night's sleep. My hair is falling out hand-fulls at a time. Stress is a major cause of flair ups. I have a daughter with special needs that include Autism, ADHD, Mood d/o-nos, and Obsessive Compulsive tendencies. I am also the caretaker of my 95 yr old grandmother with mental health issues of her own. Stress is a major part of my life. I was diagnosed with PCOS 13 yrs ago. After having a hysterectomy I had hoped for improvement. Of course that did not happen. You all know what they say about if it wasn't for bad luck I would have no luck at all, right? I have found writing to be therapeutic, and hope to help others by letting them know, they are not alone.
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